OMG!!! Sorry.... being too good at being bad!

I have been soo busy with life and such that my blog really has slacked.. Then, Virus!! flaming laptop would freeze up and not let me do anything to try adn fix it.. So I had to ring helpline to get it fixed and they tried all sorts. And then as last reort had to reset everything... EVERYTHING!!

I tried to save as much as I could... but didnt have enough memory cards.. :-( And then remembered AFTER i reset my laptop.. I didn't save any of my links saved on my browser.. oh dear!

so I have had to try and remember everythign all over again.. Luckily, having some sites emailing me i Have them sent to me and I can go to the links and save them again! Oh dear... it has been too much!! 2 years of updates to catch up on as well as uploading all sorts to get my laptop to how it used to be... It is going to take me a while! But I am determined..

I have been on my fave chat room..

Here I have earned quite a bit of cash since joining and recently upgraded for 1 month of premium membership cost me $10.95 and so far have earned over $7 so in a week have practically earned back most of the money back!! With PTC there also and Percentage points boosting my earnings per line typed, I have been earning quite a bit back from doing around 200-300 lines a day.

But since having probelms with Laptop, I have been trying to get on but have been off for a few days... so had to make up lost time... Which has been hard so far with doing constant updates...

And i miss my Flower... :'-( havent chatted mich with her since her message before. Just been scared, pre-occupied and a little worried about what i may get back.. She hasn't messaged me back either but she probably thinks that I am not interested... really don't knwo eachother that well btu do hope she can figure that I will eventually get back to her soon xx

Frustration!!

Now I am really upset... My day off and find that I cannot get into chat... no idea why but it won't let me in... my profile is still there as I looked me up on the profile viewers.. But it doesnt like me! :-(

Was able to contact the admins on the website and will await their reply... do hope that it isnt just me.. As it maybe that I am banned and without any notice... not nice at all.. i haven't done anything! ggrr... not happy now!

Going to be lazy today.. was going to try and enjoy my day but been having a bad week so far.. and could be getting worse!


Oh god I'm getting off here before I end up screwing things up on here as well!!

Go For It...!

I have just finished work.. Staff meetings at a nurseries can be an experience! Lol!!
So, been thinking about Flower.. I'm going to reply to her message as soon as I get in.. And get a drink.. Maybe a sandwich.. And relax 4a bit.. NO! Get in an go straight to my laptop and get it sent!
God! My tummy is trying to break out frm my abdomin!
Proper nervous now!

Still Putting It Off..

Have not been able to bring myself to send a message back to Flower.

What do I say? Shall I take a chance? Do I leave it to just online friendship?
Now am just an arse! I will do it! Just say what is needed to be said!

Later...

Sent It

I have sent a message to Flower... And waited for a reply... few hours past and nothing. So just carried on with chores around the internet.. Being away fro a while I do have a few bits to do..!

So just as I was looking back on my messages and I find one from... guess who?

"Hello my luvv..
I have been getting myself sorted out, knowing that you would be a bit busy with your life, I wanted to get straight. Ex gf has been wanting me back. I am really not wanting that again.. Love is just not there anymore.. And I am now truely over her. 
I haven't heard from her in a few days and now finally enjoying mingle life, I have still had you in my mind. Really odd but you truely are a great person to know and would love to meet you to get to know you more as a person than through the internet.. hee hee!! 
Nothing like finding a new great friend!! xx"

So right now.... I am sat here writing this and not sure what to say back to her... I know she feels the same I have been... hence the cool off. But I don't want to find out that i don't say or do anything and lose potentially a great friend if nothing more than that!

Oh dear... What do I do..? All this thinking is making my tummy turn.. Really do need to go to sleep.. doubt I will get much tonight!