Still Putting It Off..

Have not been able to bring myself to send a message back to Flower.

What do I say? Shall I take a chance? Do I leave it to just online friendship?
Now am just an arse! I will do it! Just say what is needed to be said!

Later...

Sent It

I have sent a message to Flower... And waited for a reply... few hours past and nothing. So just carried on with chores around the internet.. Being away fro a while I do have a few bits to do..!

So just as I was looking back on my messages and I find one from... guess who?

"Hello my luvv..
I have been getting myself sorted out, knowing that you would be a bit busy with your life, I wanted to get straight. Ex gf has been wanting me back. I am really not wanting that again.. Love is just not there anymore.. And I am now truely over her. 
I haven't heard from her in a few days and now finally enjoying mingle life, I have still had you in my mind. Really odd but you truely are a great person to know and would love to meet you to get to know you more as a person than through the internet.. hee hee!! 
Nothing like finding a new great friend!! xx"

So right now.... I am sat here writing this and not sure what to say back to her... I know she feels the same I have been... hence the cool off. But I don't want to find out that i don't say or do anything and lose potentially a great friend if nothing more than that!

Oh dear... What do I do..? All this thinking is making my tummy turn.. Really do need to go to sleep.. doubt I will get much tonight!

Righteo....!!

So, Have been away for a while, family problems. But Hopefully all sorted now and had to give my blog a new look...
What do you think?? I do have to say, it looks hottt!!

Right down to business... My chats with Flower have been non-exsistant right now, with family problems I haven't really been online much. Just checking emails and then off again more than anything else. But she hasn't really left my thoughts...

I believe that she is letting me get things sorted my end and maybe she is doing the same her end... Would be nice so then 'if' we were to meet then it would be properly. Not with baggage or mixed feelings etc. Well I hope for that...
Right now, I feel like ive got the whole world on my shoulders and dragging the world's baggage with me!

So apart from that, Things have been great! Few weeks ago I had a lookie into a competition on Forum Club. Which sounds like fun... Join the forum, Go to the competition Discussion and follow instructions to win CASH!!! EASY!! Making money online is not easy as many think you know.. So maybe if we all have some fun doing it, we can all win eventually!

Am currently thinking as been as I am on here, I might as well send Flower a message just saying hi.

Will she say hi back?
Will she tell me to go away?
What will she say?
Would she want to carry on the friendship?
Will she want it to go further?
Will she want to leave it as it is?

Now I am getting ahead of myslef here now... But with things going on and not hearing anything or evan saying anything to her... What do you expect??

2nd Day In a Row!

_So have made it 2 days in a row of blogging!! YAAAAY!! Well...

I have been up wince 9am and got straight onto my website! LOL sorry but just really want to find that it makes something for me! That isn't selfish... is it!?
Really excited about it also, friend has her website and she seems to know what she is doing! So right now have been getting experience from her... So hoping it will help with my site too!! she says she hasn't made much from it but, it is early days so have to be patient.. I HATE THAT!!!

Still can't stop thinking about Flower... she really is the best thing to have bloomed from the chat room. Most fun I've ever had for a looong time! And missing it soo much!
Wonder if she feels the same. Like a limb has been cut off and just want to stick it back on to feel whol again....

What am I talking about!??! Sound Like I've just lost my true love! EEEEKK!!! I have never been with a woman before so NO idea is would enjoy it... let alone being in a relationship with a woman! But it really feels like I have lost the one love of my life! God shoot me now!!

Blog Denial

Have been denying this blog lately... And it very Wrong of me! Sorry all who read this!

Since my last blog which was ... WOW.. that long ago!?? Well...


Myself and Flower have cooled things down since our playing online... It was getting a bit too full on for my liking, she was starting to enjoy it as much as I was, but it really was too quick since she split from her ex gf... we both didn't want to find out that we started to fall for eachothe then find it wouldn't work out. So haven't chatted properly for a while now. Odd message or 2 but really has cooled off.
I had a look at something my friend was working on and wondered about opening my very own lil website..
TopGadge and Blog
Have a look and see what you think about the website, blog and such... Please follow and soon you will gain knowledge and updates on savoings, deals, discount codes and more!
As soon as I get to grips with the main supplier and maybe gain some customers... I will see about adding new items... Unsure what yet but when I have a look will soon let you know!

So hoping to soon gain some traffic for my website and maybe customers and loyal followers of the blog also. Ugh... feeling wuite off now for some reason... No idea why. sat here typing this out and my tummy feels like I've eaten something bad.. But haven't eaten in around 4hours... well, Think it is telling em I need to go to sleep... it is WAY past my bed time!!