Grown In Life... And Love

Well, it has been a fair few years i do apologize. I seemed to have been so caught up in things recently that I completely forgot to let you all know what has been going on!

Where to start! From the last post I guess.
My Girlfriend's got to hear about the encounter with the Hot Italian Chick and they was shocked but in a nice way! they seemed to enjoy the idea of how intense and spontaneous it was more than who it was with! Phew! Was a tad worried but least they have let me know it is cool either way as long as i am happy..

I am still in the Nursery, now Deputy Manager now.. Since working there for so long, and the last Deputy Manager left after having a child.. was only fitting to see about stepping in!
I work hard and play just as... well, more fun than hard really! But still single. Although, there is one....

His name is Ed, mid 40's and has a couple of kids from ex some yrs ago.. I've know his guy since i was young! moved in few doors down from family home some yrs back! i was only just hitting my teens and he was already dating someone n soon moved out. But I've known him and the family for yrs! But he's started to show up in my Local Haunts. So we got chatting again and it got to the point where we was acting like teenagers that like each other in school! poking and teasing each other. One of my friends pulled me to one side and asked if i liked him, cos he likes me.
"Don't be Daft! I've known him for yrs!! he doesn't like me that much!" as i shrugged her off and went back to finish my drink.

I did notice that first night of seeing him, he was so eager to get me on my own. To the point that if i went to the loo, he was waiting at the door! If i went to find my friends and would be back to him, he would come with me! Holding my hand, caressing my bottom and ensuring I had a drink even when I had one! He is sweet but i am not sure if i am ready to change my life being with a guy. Am too happy right now to spoil it..

I know i seem to have skipped quite a lot but honestly, nothing much else happened to report to you! Living alone is fun, parties, sleep overs, odd guy or 3! but nothing out of the ordinary... that is worth writing about anyway!

Right, think it is time for bed.. well some sleep! I have a few things i need to sort out for Valentines Day.. Keep Posted!

Emailed

So, I have been busy over the past few hours.. Thinking and finally getting on with it. Flower...

Yes, Emailed her back after a few months of debating and getting away from it all.. For someone who doesn't have any REAL drama in life. I really do know how to make something out of nothing! So emailed her back saying that things for me were different now.. I am now officially Bi and had met someone on holiday. But have missed her and our chats. Really was a great friend.
Don't think that would go down too well with her but to be fair, we couldn't have any kind of relationship with her being overseas. The only thing that could happen is me having a holiday over there and same for her over here! What kind of relationship is that then?? Like visiting Family. But sleeping together and NOT being related. Shame really as things could have been quite nice between us. Never would have worked!

Honestly with me not knowing if I even liked women let alone had been with one.. how was I to know let alone her..? Now my head is waffling and so is my blog.. ugh

Thought more about Bianca - WOW! All I can say to that really.. heehee! Do think that has definately made me more comfy being with women more now. So now onto telling my girls..! Oh goodness how are they going to take it!? Never crossed our thoughts about lesbians or gays before.. not even in conversations!! Wierd really. We talk about practically everything! But thinking about it, 'That' conversation never has come up.

Well being friends with them for many years, I'm sure they will accept it, me. Hope!

Time Out - X Rated!

Well have been taking time out. I know, have been on and off here for some time now! But can you blame me..? Got so much going on that even I have to take time out!

So have been on holiday with the girls! And it was fun!! For the most part. they all ended up either flirting madly with the flirty italian guys or getting off with them. I was soo no interested. Mean REALLY not interested! One night out they were all over some guys and I just wondered off for a bit.. Down the bustling street to some bar down a quiet side road. Curious as to what was there I popped my head in to find all women sat in there.. Soft music, Low, candle light and smell of perfume and sweat in the air.

Made my way to the bar, looking around at the place. Not too big yet not tiny either.. finally felt at home there! Wierd really.. Ordered a small drink and sipped slowly at the cool glass. Someone come up next to me and ordered a drink, i looked up to find them looking me up and down. sussing me out I presume.
"New here?" she said.
I responded telling her I was on holiday with friends but they were busy with a bunch of guys so wasn't interested. She smiled and had a little chuckle.
"So you left them to come to a Gay Bar..?" Giving a wink to me and slight poke of her tongue on her top lip.
A GAY BAR!?? woah....! Never been before and had no idea it was! thought it could have been a quiet place that men didnt liek to go due to it being that.. quiet! I stutttered as I tried to say I had no idea..
"No worries! Can sniff 'Straight' a mile off! I'm Bianca, Lovely to meet you in here!"

We chatted at the bar and had quite a bit of a giggle of me finding this place and how I felt at home.. lol

Soon it started to get a bit too late ot be hanging around there as my friends would be wondering where I had gone... Or not been bothered! So Bianca fancied a walk and we headed out of the bar. Walking past the place I had left them before, there was no sign of them.. So as been as the night was still 'young' I mentioned a club I wanted to try out. Bianca told me that it wasn't that good and suggested a great place she goes all the time. Finding this club wasn't that hard really and it really was a great place! She said that it wasn't 'gay' but many do go there. Which in a way was fine really. It wouldn't have bothered me that much to be fair as I'm comfy with anyone who prefers anyone.. heehee!!

Hot, Sweaty, Heavy Breathing, Happy Panting, Drink Going Down - Really was the best... And yet I found myself staring at her as she was dancing and her Shirt was undone. Bright red bra on with swaet dripping down her chest. Brests perked up and nipples showing through.. I just couldnt help myself.. we stared at each other as we were moving together, closer and the sweat running over us. i caressed her hips and she ran her hands over my chest..

WOW it was that intense! MY very first encounter with a woman and it was with a hot italian chick!

She took me by the hand and dragged me to the ladies.. Guessing what was coming next I became soo wet and horny! She threw me into the cubicle and slammed the door behind her. I pinned her to the wall and sparks flew! Hot, passionate, heavy kisses felt more like fireworks yet at the same time soft and gentle. I soon pulled her bra straps down and gently nibbled on her nipples. I could feel her hand moving down her body and into her wet undies. She couldn't wait any longer.. I pulled my head back up she pushed me to the toilet and knelt down in front of me. undone my trousers and slowly let them drop to the floor. As I stood there eager for the outcome, I stared to drip ever more. She placed one of my legs up on the toilet seat so i was fully open to her and she buried her head into me. PHEW... It's getting hot in here!

Well, Soon after, I told her that it was my first time.. She could tell yet was a little suprised at how relaxed at it I was. Phone numbers were swapped and we parted ways.. I hadn't contacted her since then. Nothing was mentioned to my friends either as have no idea how they would react.. Not that they would be disgusted! But witht eh fact I was being goody two shoes the whole holiday, would have been shocked at what had happened.. lmao!


So, Wonder what to do now..?

Totally Spaced

Today has been a very weird day.. Have been to work, got home, eaten, washed and even got in front of the TV and got all my soaps watched. And I can’t remember doing any of it! I have no idea what I have done today or how I done any of it but it got done and now I’m here typing this out to you..
I’ve been not thinking about the one thing I don’t want to think about.. yet think that was why everything else was getting done and don’t remember doing any of it.. Cos I was thinking of it.
So…… Really do need to get something done about it but think that talking about it might help a bit. But who to talk to..? No-one knows about it really.. well not my friends or family.. only you lot on here know about it! So maybe here you can help me out with it.

I have no idea what to do or say or think really…. Mind just does not compute and it is giving me a headache.. I’m curious about what is going on.. and about her in particular but really do I fancy having a go with her being so far away from me..? I can’t even remember where she was from now it has been that long ago.. think I mentioned it here somewhere but will have to trawl through all my posts.. lol
I have been quite randy lately and it has been getting to the point that dreams have been the sort you wake from and really wished you hadn’t!! Yet finding that tingling feeling that won’t go without intervention… I won’t get into anything more really heehee!! And so since the message from Flower, I haven’t or remember what I dreamt of last night.. and so have been in a bit of a spaced out, weird place right now..
So…! What shall I do..??

Such A Great Weekend

Have really been relaxed and chilled this weekend and it has been sheer bliss! Do wonder why it happened but it did and soo glad it did really! But got into work this morning with the biggest smile on my face and a skip in my step that nothing could ruin my day… not even being lumbered with the naughty children or the day. they all behaved themselves and enjoyed their day with me! Was great!!!
Even the boss ( who is usually always grumpy!) was with a smile on her face.. after a nice chat with me of course! LOL Which was great for the others as they ended up enjoying today as well with everyone in a good mood it rubbed off on everyone!
Got home and ended up getting myself food from the chippy, sat in front of the laptop and found an email from Flower… which kind of wiped the smile off my face. The email was titled ‘Thinking of you…’ Which made my skin go all goosepimply and a shudder over my body. I really didn’t know what to do really.. I sat there in front of my laptop with my emails open and staring at the message flashing at me saying New Message!
Shall I open it?! Delete it and forget all about it and her..? But what has she said..? Why is she back after this long from leaving me a while ago..? Well there is only one way to sort this out..
“ Hello there my darling,
I have been sorting things out and finally have got things sorted out.. No more ex after me now, she has moved away and says she doesn’t want to hear from me again.. she was the one calling me! But now she has gone I have finally stopped thinking about you.. Only because I am finally writing to you.
So how have you been doing? What has gone on? Things your end going well? Do hope that things between us haven’t died. I do enjoy your company.. Even if it has been over the internet.. Has been too quiet.
Well, I bet you are wondering.. Why I have got back in contact again. There is one easy answer really… I wish to be able to pick up from where we left it before. If that is how you feel also.. God i bet that your mind is wondering what to do right now.
I do hope that you will at least say hi to me.. if not and I don’t hear back from you then I totally accept it and will not get in contact again.. Do hope that you do though x
Flower”

So……… What do I say!??